The 28 Day Detox…..The Ultimate Challenge for an Emotional-Eater

I ADORE food.  I love to cook.  I’m not much of a baker, but sweets are definitely my weakness. For me, food represents more than just fuel for my body; it seems to play a significant role in my life. Not only do I eat when I’m hungry, I eat when I’m stressed, I eat when I’m sad.  I reward myself with food after a long day.  Sometimes food soothes me, while other times it fills me with a tremendous sense of guilt.  I’ve gained a bit of insight into my relationship with food over the past two years as I have struggled with infertility.  In a lot of ways, food has been my coping mechanism; chocolate peanut butter ice cream has gotten me through some of my darkest days. Food has comforted me, has distracted me, has cured my boredom.

But after I’ve put on about 20 lbs of emotional weight over the past two years, I feel I can no longer ignore this somewhat toxic relationship that I have developed with food.

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So I’ve decided to do a 28-day detox.  I know it sounds trendy and maybe even a little hokey.  My husband let out a heavy sigh when I told him of my plan.  A few friends rolled their eyes in skepticism.  But there is something about this detox that is very appealing to me. I’m not gonna lie, I am hoping to shed a few pounds and am crossing my fingers that my jeans will fit a little better.  But at a deeper level, my long-term goal is to try to break free of this dependency that I seem to have developed.

My hope is that this cleanse will help me understand who I am without food and will force me to deal with my emotions as opposed to turning to food as a means of numbing or avoiding my feelings.

Here’s the deal; for the next 28 days I will eliminate caffeine, refined sugar, gluten, alcohol, dairy, soy and corn.  I will have a protein shake for breakfast and lunch, two healthy snacks and a sensible dinner.   That’s the plan.  This plan scares the crap out of me.

First off, I am a caffeine-addict.  Starbucks is my heroine.  That first sip of coffee in the morning literally sends shivers down my coffee_addictspine.  I know this sounds crazy, but coffee makes me happy.  It is an integral part of my routine.  I know I can do it, but cutting out caffeine is going to be a major challenge, like saying goodbye to a dear friend.

My second concern has to do with feeling hungry.  I hate this feeling.  I’ve noticed that I ALWAYS eat until I am busting. For whatever reason, feeling full feels good to me.  The idea of really paying attention to my body, to when I am truly hungry and when I actually feel satiated is totally foreign to me. This is going to be interesting…..

I am expecting the next 28 days will probably be difficult for an emotional eater like myself.  But I am looking forward to reaping the benefits that seem to come along with this detox and am ready to challenge myself mentally.  Stay tuned next month to read about what this 28-day detox was really like! Now I am off to indulge in my last piece of delicious cheesecake before I actually do this thing…..wish me luck!!!!

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  • You have described my relationship with food to a T. You are very strong to even have the goal of accomplishing this. My hate goes off to you. Good luck ! Looking forward to hearing the outcome.

  • When I read your artlicle about being an emotional eater, It was as if I had written the article myself.
    You expressed and acknowledged your true feeling about your relationship with food.
    Yes, it really is a weird kind of relationship that I understand and experience everyday. It isso distructive using food for the reasons you mentioned. I too, reward myself for any bumps that I encounter in my everyday life. I am a hard working wife,mom,teacher and always need everything to be smooth,happy,and simple. But life isn’t like that. So I have also found food to
    help with any sadness, stresses and disappointments.
    I would like to encourage you on your 28 day cleanse and I will do my best to folllow the same straight forward plan as well. I know how wonderful i feel when I am eating properly.
    Keep your readers posted and share your journey with us. Wishing you success and me too!
    BTW. Your website truly is impressive. It’s intelligent,current,resourceful and fun to read. Now there is something to be proud of. Now you can reward yourself with some lovely cut up veggies. I know it’s not cookies,cake,chips or ice cream, but so much better for our physical and emotional well being.

    • Thanks so much for your comments Linda, it really helps to hear I’m not alone. I’m hoping that during this detox, my relationship with food will change for the better. So happy you’re enjoying the website, keep following us!!!!!